Does your outward appearance always reflect how you feel on the inside? Absolutely not! There have been days where I feel like crap (such as today) but based upon what I have to get done (finish this class for my j-o-b). I find my “big girl” panties, put them on, add a smile and keep moving. I remember someone saying to me that I do not appear relatable to someone who is going through a struggle because of how I carried myself, I looked as if I would not understand someone else’s struggle. Well I can say to them that they can blame my mom for that. She told me that you don’t wear your feelings on your sleeve nor do you talk about every ailment that you have. “Sabrina, no one loves a constant sour puss.” So I keep my head up, my smile intact and I get the job done. But I do try to tell my story, my struggles and how I overcame them when the time is appropriate and when it is needed. It’s funny to me just how much I can relate to women because (I’m one of course) but I have played roles from “ride or die chick” to my current state.
Now have you ever wondered why 1 Samuel 16:7 says that, “…People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart”? It is because we can wear so many masks that we can sometimes forget which one we are wearing, we can wear them for so long that they become permanent, and we can switch them out so often that we lose track of ourselves. The heart, in most cases, does not change as often as our masks that we wear do. Regardless of our outward appearances the inward doesn’t lie.
Do you remember or have you seen the movie Face Off with Nicolas Cage and John Travolta? When their faces were “switched” the family could not tell that John Travolta, who now was walking around “looking like” Nicolas Cage, was not who his outward experience portrayed him to be. However, later in the movie the family realized that the one who looked like their husband or dad was not whom they appeared to be because the INNER did not match the OUTER. Pointing this out to say, I thank God that he looks inward because I have worn masks and if he judged me off of my portrayal of who I thought I was or who I tried to be or the representative that I displayed I would be lost. With Him, if with no one else, I can be myself at all times because I can never fool Him with who I am trying to be and most of all he sees my heart!!! Be blessed…